Slow down

The world has always been right in front of me

As plain as it can be

As beautiful as it should be

And the world

Just as harsh and hard as it always is

It started off so slow

And easy

And wondrous

And scary

The world wrapped me up

Kept me safe

Scared the hell out of me

It ticked away in slow moments

That looked as if they would last forever

Never meant to be for me

Or anyone else

The world snailed along with me

Not as long nor as slow as it first seemed

All at once

The world let go of me

Its furious pace became aparent

To me

It scared me at first

Then challenged me to keep up

Then ran over me

So many times

And times again

Even as the world pushed me down so hard

Bloodied my nose

And broke a few bones

I found a way to slow it down

Just enough

Enough to see the beauty again

Feel the fear

Know

This world

Fall in love

Care about someone

And something else

Besides myself

Hold and care for a sick son and daughter

Till they are well again

See

Fear is when you dont feel safe

And my sons and daughter

Have felt a day or two

Without fear

In my arms

The world

slow and low

Then

The world

And those things that speed it to such a blur

To madden your senses

Loose yourself

Again

Fall out of love

Many days and years

Of nonsense

Selfishness

The world screamed forward at break neck speed

Depression

Another lonely

Selfish waste of the turning world

Or

just stand still

The world doesn't care

as it moves right past you

I pray to slow it down

enough

for this life time

to feel like one

and maybe just a little more