The world has always been right in front of me
As plain as it can be
As beautiful as it should be
And the world
Just as harsh and hard as it always is
It started off so slow
And easy
And wondrous
And scary
The world wrapped me up
Kept me safe
Scared the hell out of me
It ticked away in slow moments
That looked as if they would last forever
Never meant to be for me
Or anyone else
The world snailed along with me
Not as long nor as slow as it first seemed
All at once
The world let go of me
Its furious pace became aparent
To me
It scared me at first
Then challenged me to keep up
Then ran over me
So many times
And times again
Even as the world pushed me down so hard
Bloodied my nose
And broke a few bones
I found a way to slow it down
Just enough
Enough to see the beauty again
Feel the fear
Know
This world
Fall in love
Care about someone
And something else
Besides myself
Hold and care for a sick son and daughter
Till they are well again
See
Fear is when you dont feel safe
And my sons and daughter
Have felt a day or two
Without fear
In my arms
The world
slow and low
Then
The world
And those things that speed it to such a blur
To madden your senses
Loose yourself
Again
Fall out of love
Many days and years
Of nonsense
Selfishness
The world screamed forward at break neck speed
Depression
Another lonely
Selfish waste of the turning world
Or
just stand still
The world doesn't care
as it moves right past you
I pray to slow it down
enough
for this life time
to feel like one
and maybe just a little more
